I hate when Alex is away. His job will sometimes keep him out overnight but I don’t mind that as much as when he’s on a multi-night business trip out of state. Fortunately, these trips are a rare occurance, but the next month is an anomoly with him travelling out of state three times before the end of June. Today he left for Denver. He’ll be home Thursday and then the week after next he goes to New Orleans for a few days. In June, he’ll go to Southern California and that should be his last big trip for a while. It’s just so random that they’re so concentrated so far this year! He doesn’t mind the travelling – I think he thinks of them like mini-adventures – so I’m happy that he has the opportunity to go… I just miss him!
I was talking to a friend at work about Alex’s travels today and she asked me how I am alone. She’s such a sweet person that she’d probably offer to let me stay with her if I was freakishly not OK with being alone. I told her that I’m fine by myself… I just tend to pig out and stay up too late, though! I can see that tonight will probably fit that pattern, unfortunately. 
I’m hoping, though, that I can turn over a new leaf tomorrow and try and use my time alone to force myself back into some healthy habits. It should be easier to get up and get out of bed early tomorrow morning without Alex to cozy up next to. Also, I can get away with just eating something small for dinner rather than having to put together a whole meal.
It’s weird how intensified everything is when you’re alone. I hear every noise twice as loud and the darkness in the hallway seems blacker than usual. I locked every single lock on all of our doors and jumped a mile when the phone rang earlier. Even the cats seem more needy. They’re both trying to sit on me and seem to be competing over who can be more in my face. (Door just slammed downstairs and I almost peed my pants.) I guess we all miss “daddy” (yes we are those people who act like their cats call them “mommy and daddy”).
I guess I should try and enjoy my alone time. It is nice to not hear the tv or Sirius or GTA4 constantly. I was able to finish a silly little “chick-lit” novel and managed to keep myself away from my computer and the really bad for my back way that I sit on the bench in front of my iMac which always causes me severe pain by the end of the night. I also managed to not get caught up in work all night. I dug out a Pilates DVD and plan on doing that workout tomorrow (something I’m not ready to do in front of Alex yet as I look retarded trying to do the moves). It’s nice not to have to consult anyone on mundane choices, but it’s also a little boring (much like this pointless post…). Can’t wait for Thursday!
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